-no news- (warning: graphic. maybe a skipper?)

ive always been a news watcher/reader. i like to know whats going on in the world, whether it be good or bad. ive always thought that its impossible to make a difference in the world if you dont even know whats going on in it.

anyways, it may just be me...but it seems like the news is generally bad lately. and at times it seems nightmarish. and to be honest with you, it started to get to me for awhile. so for a month or so i cut way down on keeping up. i have enough to handle in my home, and at work, etc...so i need to concentrate on what i can control. i dunno, i guess my reasonings for keeping up, or not keeping up are irrelevant...the point is this: i used to keep up. then for a month, i stopped. now over the last week or so, im keeping up again.

last night i was reading the news online and i came across a story that made me sick to my stomach. i had to just close the browser and go to bed. i did my best to just forget about it, but i just cant. i looked around for it again today so i could link to it, but i had no luck finding it. i dont even remember where it happened...

i guess a man in some state was just put to death for sexual assault and murder. sadly thats a pretty common headline. i read the entire story about the crime though. apparently he car jacked a woman who was riding in her vehicle with her 2 daughters in the backseat. he made her drive to a isolated location where he raped her at gunpoint...while her kids sat in the back seat and screamed. after the assault he shot the woman multiple times, threw her in the ditch and left her for dead. (but, she did not die) as he drove away the womans daughters yelled for their mommy...so he shot both of them in the face. they both died.

this woman was raped at gunpoint, shot multiple times, lost both her daughters to murder. all in one day. and this is the world we live in. it seriously sounds like a bad movie. i cant get my head around it. this actually happened to someone.

argh...all that is awful enough. just unbelievably awful. but heres the part of the story that REALLY bothered me. during the sexual assault...the rape...the screaming young daughters in the backseat being forced to witness it...during all that horror the woman cried out for help. she cried out to jesus. "jesus...please help me." the murderers response? "jesus isnt here...only satan is here." he finished raping her, shot her multiple times, and then murdered her daughters when they cried out for her.

heres why i hate the news lately. when i read the news i sometimes think..."jesus is not here. only satan is here." what the hell is wrong with humanity?