-slower please-

its turned out to be one of those weeks again. yeah..one of those. i took monday off in an effort to just slow things down a little. work has been stressful...the kids have been stressful...im just gonna skip the list and go with this: life has been stressful.

when i get stressed out life feels like its coming at me too fast. something happens...and while im still processing whats happened, something else happens and before i know it im dealing with a whole list of problems. these last 2 or so years have been that to an extreme. just one thing after another until im begging life to just slow down for a little bit, at least let me get caught up. give me a week of sleep and rest and then we can get back into all the problems of the world and what little old me can do to solve them.

long story short, even with monday off, life has not given me that rest. a mistake was made on chloes adoption paperwork. her birthdate was listed as one day earlier than it really is. i did not make this mistake. but its going to cost me $500 to have an attorney fix it. im not even mad at the person who made the mistake. i can see how it was made...to a certain extent anyway. im just mad that the one thing in my life that finally seemed to resolve is now back to feeling unresolved and stressful. back at it i guess. someday, rest.

tomorrow. im selected for a one day jury trial. pablo the juror they call me. i have to call in about a half hour here to see if the case has settled. i hope it settles. part of me wants another day break from work...but a break on a jury? no thanks. im thinking a beach sounds better...or a mountain. im also scheduled for a meeting with a social worker to work out chloe and dylans insurance. since they both came here through foster care they are eligable for county/state help including free full medical and dental coverage. which of course beats my insurance plan by a ton. but...if im on a jury...no meeting...and no phone calls to the lawyer to get this mistake fixed. theres just flat out too much going on that i want to get resolved asap...please settle the frickin case.

before you start calling me "boo hoo pablo"...i am doing just fine. stressed? yes. but i feel lucky in a lot of ways too. and there are things in life that i am enjoying. our church softball team is in the championship game next monday. so we are guaranteed at least 2nd. (with a slight chance to take 1st.) this has been the best softball season ive ever had at the plate. im hitting better than i ever have and it feels good. chloe is growing and learning new things every day. she can just be a blast to spend time with. and i love it.

if life could just slow down a little. just a little. that would be great.